And the Vanilla Made Me Remember…
To this Scorpio woman that I became in this incarnation…
The vanilla, with its sweet aroma, awakened my dominant sacral chakra and made me remember…
Between pleasure, desire, and the obsession that characterizes my way of holding on…
In this case, holding on to that memory of who I am.
The fragments of God that we are, in essence, seek the experience of creating as our Source, in a complete manner. We seek the experience of creating as the Father-Mother God creates.
Our life is the process of Self-Discovery: trial and error, learning our own unique way of transmuting, evolving, clearing, cleaning, manifesting, replicating, and growing—and so growing.
Some transmute with water, under the shower. Some on the treadmill, some in nature, some dancing, some making love, because there are so many ways of creating, transmuting, ascending…
Transmuting is one of the main steps, because we need to declutter the mind, the heart, the body, and the Spirit before bringing in a new, updated experience of ourselves.
Once empty and ready, the principle through which we create is, in essence, the same: a perfect alignment of masculine and feminine polarity within. However, the creative process, the experience, and the method will vary from human to human, each one of us with our own configuration.
We also learn with time that we require less drama and protocol, and more intention.
Initially, we rely on the physical steps we took the first time the experiment gave life to a new reality. We repeat the ritual, the formula, the process, because we still believe the magic is in what we did.
However, the more convinced we become that we aren’t simply humans with good luck, but actually God in a physical vessel, the more we rely on our Essence to do the job.
I remember the days when talking about a mission sounded like something so elaborate, profound, and mystical, almost impossible for any normal mortal…
Yeah.
Because we used to think that we were simple mortals.
And how incredible it is today to realize that my mission is this:
Being alive in a body, remembering that I am SOOOO much the Source.
The great awakening moment is understanding that you are actually what you have been seeking.
You are what you are looking for.
And what you are looking for is looking for you.
The encounter is with you, in all phases, facets, and faces.
You are you, and you are You.
And all you love is You, and all You love is being you.
And the other is the extension of you, the perfect mirror.
Yes, the perfect mirror.
They are your mirror in density and in light, and they are your mirror until they stop being your mirror.
How redundant is life.
I know.
So simple that it becomes complex, because my human, complex brain seeks complexity while simplicity is all that it is.
And in order to stop creating what drains me, it takes a stop, a realization, a look back, feedback, and a new implementation.
Trial and error.
And once I realize the new thing I want, I need to ask myself:
How worthy do I feel of it?
Basically, how much of God do I recognize in me?
How capable and worthy am I of carrying that new frequency?
The question of whether we are worthy or not is such a human part of the process, because worth is never really imposed externally. It is a full individual human imposition.
However, the capacity to carry a new frequency is energetic work, and that is real.
Deserving is not the same as being able to carry.
I deserve the world.
But my human psyche, which is my vessel, might not be ready for it.
And that is the part of me that requires a reset.
My brain.
Not the physical brain, but the beliefs that live within me.
The limiting beliefs that, as their name suggests, limit my experience on this plane.
It is not my social background, religion, gender, generation, age, or profession.
It is my beliefs.
My limiting beliefs are called limiting because they limit how much I can receive.
I can be anything that my limiting beliefs allow me to be.
And expanding the vessel means raising our awareness of those limiting beliefs to a higher degree, so I can access more of this universe, this infinitely abundant universe.
Our limiting beliefs also accompany us along a destiny.
Not a destiny written in stone, but a set of talents and challenges to be overcome.
And honestly, more than my talents, it is my challenges that mark my greatest gift and become my tool to destroy my limiting beliefs.
Because talents, instead of simply being praised, are the guides and the helpers that allow us to turn, transform, and transmute the challenges into great gifts.
And great gifts turn into mission.
So the mission wasn’t to be a prophet.
That, by the way, you are sooo it
The mission was to be yourself in your most authentic, raw expression.
Fearless.
Clear.
Conscious.
In plenitude.
In enjoyment.
In pleasure.
In ecstasy.
In glory.
You, and only you, to such an extent that the hater hates you with passion because you are his mirror of his own self-imposed incapacity.
And the fan adores you because adoring you is adoring himself.
Is there an end to this race toward the climax of consciousness, enlightenment, and awareness?
No.
Because enlightenment is the bulb I turn on to illuminate my next level of darkness.
The topic I enlighten becomes my guide to overcome the next, deeper, darker, hidden side of me.
So unknown.
So subtle.
And even though there is no climax, there is elevation in frequency.
You simply live and experience less density.
Your motion speeds up.
Your processes happen at a faster speed.
Lighter.
Faster.
Deeper.
Happier.
But this does not mean that you become someone who is always happy.
It means that you feel more.
When you are sad, you feel sadness more intensely, less masked, less intellectualized, less hidden behind the performance of being okay.
And you let it out.
Because there is a pleasure in feeling sadness and letting it move through you.
My Soul rests when the sadness is evident.
When I stop hiding it behind a pretension of strength.
When I stop forcing myself to transcend it before I have actually felt it.
I do not let my spiritual ego indoctrinate me into believing that sadness is useless simply because all experiences are meant for a purpose.
The fact that my misery has a purpose does not dismiss the space that sadness deserves.
Mourning and grieving myself—the parts of me that feel so incapable, so undeserving, so broken—deserve the space and the respect of my sadness.
There is nothing spiritually superior about refusing to feel pain.
There is no enlightenment in abandoning the human experience in the name of transcendence.
And in the same manner, the perpetrator, as much as he may be a master, deserves limits.
No matter how much my enlightened ego tells me that he is simply a master of life, a mirror, a teacher.
He may be.
But he is also the part of the experience that deserves limits.
Physical boundaries.
Consequences.
And the possibility of divine justice.
Because understanding why someone hurt me does not mean I have to give them access to hurt me again.
Seeing the mirror does not mean I have to embrace what the mirror reflects.
And recognizing the lesson does not cancel the right to say:
Enough.
There can be compassion without access.
There can be understanding without permission.
There can be forgiveness without reconciliation.
There can be a spiritual meaning to an experience without romanticizing the experience itself.
And perhaps this is also part of enlightenment:
To stop using spirituality to escape the human experience.
To let myself grieve.
To let myself be angry.
To let myself feel.
To let myself protect.
To let myself draw the boundary.
To let the human being within me have the dignity of being human.
And even though there is no climax, there is elevation in frequency.
You simply live and experience less density.
Your motion speeds up.
Your processes happen at a faster speed.
Lighter.
Faster.
Deeper.
Happier.
And when sadness comes, deeper too.
More honest.
More naked.
More real.
You cry because you cry.
You grieve because you grieve.
You let the tears do their work.
And then, eventually, you move.
So there is a clear difference.
And there is an exit from hell within the same planet.
The same house.
The same job.
The same life.
Most probably, your life will change too, but it is not subject to the place.
It is subject to your internal work.
All of the work described above.
So elevating consciousness does have the effect of creating a more pleasurable, less limiting life experience.
Now, we need not fall into the egotistical perception of abundance.
We are not uniform.
Nor do we want the same things.
Because what we want somehow also comes associated with our destiny, our place, and our purpose.
To create generic brochures of how enlightenment and happiness should look is absurd, and so contrary to the multiplicity and diversity through which God manifests through each one of us.
Because the ONE manifests in the multiple, whether we like it or not.
Abundance and happiness are what you feel in this instant.
No matter what you have with you.
No matter where you are.
Stop here for a second and ask yourself:
Are you in peace, ecstasy, and joy right now?
Not in your present circumstances.
In this present instant.
You have reached.
If yes is your answer…
Let this great success take you to the next level of darkness tomorrow, characterized by fear, worry, and self-doubt.
And let your wise Soul guide you to the gateway of that passage through hell…
Into a perfumed space in paradise.
Within you.
Always within you.
Never outside you.
And help yourself by resetting your brain and repeating to your beautiful body how much you deserve.
Because you are who you are.
And that is SOOOO Enough.
